My journey has been an outgoing transition and a difficult one. I faced many difficulties during the transition to Islam, but on the other side, I also see a lot of beauty in it. During the transition to Islam, I lost my family and friends. Everyone criticized me because of my faith. Even my dearest friends and my teachers criticized me a lot. My teachers could not even look at me. No one knew how many difficulties a scarf put between us.
On the other side, I have met many awesome people and seen the kindest and pure souls in the world, and the best thing I have done in my life is my journey to Islam.
Journey to Islam
Before returning to Islam, I did not know any Muslims. I had little information about Islam and did not understand it. I was utterly lost in the lust of the world. I was totally out of touch with Islam. But suddenly and luckily, I felt a lot of changes in me from a girl with no interest in Islam to someone convinced that I was born to be a Muslim. I am blessed to have taken part in this purest transformation.
One day I was reading a newspaper for my social sciences class on the Syrian crisis. Suddenly I saw the line that Bashar al Assad was a Muslim, it intrigued me, and I was thinking, what was a Muslim? I just researched Islam and took out some Islamic books. All this changes me inside. I felt strange truths and peace during my journey to Islam. I felt that I am in love with Islam, and with these teachings, I am in love with Allah Almighty. ,I needed to say the shahada, to become Muslim, but I knew no Muslims in my school.
Librarian noticed that I was researching and finding books related to Islam she referred me to omer. Omer came from Syria, was 24 years old, and was a school technician.
I went to him and told him the whole story of what had changed my mind for so long, and he just froze. His whole face lit up, and he suddenly went from a distant, uninterested man to one who wanted to help me. He also told me about Islamic teachings and invited me to meet his father and could not stop asking me what had changed my mind and introduced me to Islam and how my journey to Islam was.
I took my shahadah on 2nd November 2013, omer’s father pronounced my shahada, but that was the beginning of many social problems related to my journey to Islam.
My closest friends and classmates slowly left me and began criticizing me. How ridiculous it was for a Samoan tomboy to become a “ninja” (a reference to the niqab). I met another Muslim teacher that teacher was very interested in helping me, and I was so happy. I told that teacher about my whole journey from lust to Islam.
I hid it from my family until I could finally come out with it and walk around with my hijab and pray and make wudu openly. But when my family heard about me, they were shocked and disgusted. They took me toward the pastor’s wife’s house to remove evil from me.
They threw all my books, abayas, prayer mats, and scarves, which broke me from the inside. They signed me over to foster care.
It was hard for me to leave my family, I felt unwanted, but Allah Almighty wanted me. Then I went to Zayed college, which was only an Islamic collage for girls. I was exposed to such lovely girls and their beautiful families.
Because of all these difficulties, I felt strange peace inside me. I was happy that I was spending an authentic life with true religion. I learned a lot during my journey to Islam.
I think that becoming a Muslim is a significant change. The most important thing is your salat. Pray first, and go to the mosque, which will surely help new Muslims. Read and listen to Islamic lectures and help others.